Every Steam summer or winter sale is the same. I get excited and a little giggly as I rush to my Wishlist to see what kind of massive discounts I get on 10+ year old games. I usually pick up 4-5 games for around $30. Then, they sit idling in my library unplayed and unloved for years.
I’m coming up to the end of my first 30 day challenge from 7 Habits of Highly Effective People and I can’t say it has been easy. For the last month I’ve tried to catch myself from simply reacting. Meaning, I’ve caught myself from taking actions against my core values. I’ve thought about how my responses align, or should align, with my values instead of appeasing others or sacrificing my self-worth.
I’m a survivor.
Within my lifetime I’ve experienced friends dying to freak accidents and suicide. I’ve overcome a severe diagnosis (given only a handful of years to live). Pain, hurt, with both mental and spiritual anguish have been present for as long as I can remember. While I know things could have been worse, I definitely know they could have been better. I have fought to keep my well being in tact and I’m proud of the person I have become as a result.
I am a survivor.
(If you’ve not done so, search ‘Pac-Man’ in google desktop and play a free version of Pac-man in the search results)
When I was a kid, my family occasionally visited a pizzeria that housed the Pac-Man, Tempest, and Asteroids arcade games.
Of the three, I’ve always sucked at Pac-Man.
When playing, I didn’t understand the point. Sure, I got the mechanics easy enough, but I didn’t get the goal. The player completes a level and moves on in an endless series of mazes trying to avoid ghosts all the while trying to eat as many cookies as possible. Seems pointless to me.
However, all of this didn’t stop me from occasionally using one of my few quarters for the night on this seemingly pointless game.
As a project manager, I get glimpses into clients lives every time we kickoff a new project. A laptop camera has become the lens at which I see into the personal lives of everyone I meet. I see their kids playing, their kitchen being repainted, or even that they are a fan of midwest AAA league baseball.
While these details help me humanize and connect with those I serve, their words resound to a greater scale of the day to day turmoils we all face.
The last several weeks have been a nightmare for time. Every day I’ve been asked for help on a project while attempting to maintain my own. I’ve also been spending some time working on myself.
Not only have I continued reading 7 habits of highly effective people, I’ve been reflecting on my own experiences at LexBlog. Just getting into the end of the first section (intro and overview) of the book, it dawned on me how wrong I’ve been with my personal paradigm on projects. Feeling overwhelmed by the sheer amount of work has left me drained and emotionally exhausted from a constant need to prove my worth i.e. a “Personality Ethic”.
My set of work paradigms are changing towards a “Character Ethic”. I have seen this growth in myself and others.